Grrr... I'm in the worst mood today! I don't know why, I just woke up this way. Just when I thought all of those cravings for junk food were gone they come back with a vengence!!! Stupid cravings! Yesterday I wanted ice cream or chocolate chip cookies so bad that I was like 2 seconds from cheating! I even grabbed the frozen cookie dough from the freezer and stared at it for about 5 min contemplating whether I should just have one a little bite or not. Lol I can't believe that I almost lost my self control! There is something seriously wrong with me! I think I need to go to sugar addiction rehab haha, if there is such a place. Anyone that knows me knows that I LOVE sugar, sugar to me is like crack is to a crack head haha so going without it for these 3 wks has been hell. I even had a dream last night that I ate a whole thing of brownie ice cream... that could be why I'm in a bad mood. I feel like I'm losing control of my cravings and I hate more than anything not being in control of myself.
I'm not supposed to exercise because I'm not taking in any carbs so my body has nothing to burn but I have to do something to keep my mind off of things that shouldn't be there.
10 more lbs and I will be able to move up to the next phase of the diet so I will be able to have most fruits and veggies. I'm sure I can get creative with the fruit and splenda haha. Maybe the problem is that I'm getting really bored with the food that I am eating. Think about it, what can you really do with meat, cheese and eggs, your options are very limited! It was fun at first because I was creating new things but now my brain is all out of ideas and I'm getting bored, that isn't a good thing because when I get bored with a certain food it is very hard for me to eat it without gagging or even vomiting.
Hopefully I can lose the next 10lbs without getting to that stage so I can move up to the next phase of the diet!!!! Anyways, enough rambling. I have to go keep myself busy for the next 45 min or so until it is light enough outside to go for a run/walk.
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